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Tony and I have had a relationship that has lasted thru several years.. It started out as gathering info about Him, and then somehow changed.. So many things happened that I cant get to all the details, and yet our friendship still held strong.. I started looking to him as Father figure.. The father I always wanted to have and fill the void of the pain I had as a child.. And not having a father that loved me.. Tony filled that Void and loved me, and protected me as like a real Dad would.. I honestly felt like his real daughter…

And then I hear a rumor, and needed to see for myself.. Tony had a real daughter, and didnt even tell me.. He wanted to protect her from the media.. So he kept that secret from me.. I was completely Crushed and Hurt.. It was one thing when he kept secrets of him going over seas, because I worried and would try to stop him.. But this??? I mean C’mon?? Im a Thief!! He knew That!! He knew I avoided the Media and General public, and he couldnt Tell me?? Why??

Such a Huge Fight Broke out.. I felt like he couldnt trusst me and didnt want me apart of his life.. Im not his real daughter.. And I will never be..

So, then I just took off.. And I told My Love Everything that Happened.. And his advice to me, was to be the bigger person, and forgive him.. But I dont know how?? How am I suppose to forgive him?? To forgive him, is to let go.. To let the pain come back into my heart, and remember that he isnt my real father.. And accept that.. That I cant keep believing on having a shred of false happiness to erase the pain from my childhood.. Dammitt!! I love Tony like a Real Dad!! We have so many Things In Common like a Real Father and Daughter would!! But Im Not… Im Not His Real Daughter.. And Would Never Be!!